Happines

Well what a shock another year of a sad lonely pretty much high valentine's day. But hey who's complaining, anyways maybe it's just life you know. Maybe ya just gotta stop feeling miserable all the time and start thinking about the positive in it. But I pretty shure know forgetting to have felt like this is not in written in my future. I started noticing that I'm kind of starting to look like my mom. Not fysicly ofcourse but more like on the inside, I guess. But I'm not shure if that's a good thing or a bad or neither way. Maybe it's just me who's trying to figure things out and notices that I do it the same way as my mom does, even if I'm not so shure that my mom is still figuring things out. It's hard not feeling this way. But I noticed that maybe, just maybe I'm not the only one feeling this way and it's weird not knowing what this feelings mean but I'll figure it out someday.....oneday.

PurpleChicksDream....

Suprised.

Something happen yesterday night. S texted me with the question of when we were going to met up again. I was like really surprised by the text but then again there was a really small part of me that was happy because of the text. I was happy because of the thought that she was thinking about me at that time. So I told her to meet up tomorrow because I really wanted to see her to and see how she is doing and to see if she really is not a friend to hang with. So we'll see tomorrow if we're really going to meet and I wonder what we're going to do. So that's pretty much it. Wondering bout tomorrow..!!

PurpleChicksDream....

Whitney Houston.

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Everybody's searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfilled my needs
A lonely place to be
And so I learned to depend on me

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed at least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity

Because the greatest love of all is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all inside of me
The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all
[. From: http://www.elyrics.net .]

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed at least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity

Because the greatest love of all is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all inside of me
The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all

And if by chance that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

- 'Whitney Houston' A great Star carved into our memories!! 



Now this is a song with a great lyrics. I really saw up to this women!! RIP..!!

PurpleChicksDream....

My 2012.

2012 a year of much trouble then anything else! I can't imagin an other year I had more horrible things to deal with and go through then 2012. It's really sad actually cause let me tell you about my 2012: starters I came home from my vacations in morocco where I spend the most horrible vacation ever!!! I practicly have been more on the road and sitting on my ass then laying on the beach or walking trough souk's!! Then my dad!!! who went to reserve tickets to go back home behind our back so we could go home because a certain person has to be home cause of his damm café for all those people who spend their life sitting in a café drinking and playing poker then spending time with their family. So there go's my relaxing time again let alone my mom's. I told myself never I'm I going on vacation with my dad ever again. They can't force me anyways. I'd rader stay home and work my ass of to earn some money then to go a place where there is no fun no relaxing n'or chilling!! Anyways that was my vacation of 2012 wich was 'HORRIBLE'!!! Then school that starts without S, but considering recent situations I'm happy it did. She quit school to go do CVO,  wich is like a school for people who didn't finish high school so they could still have a degree of high school, and 4 that  they only have to go 1 year. Anyways she went to do that without even letting me now she  was going to quit school. Well actually she told me she wanted to do that last year but I was able to talk her out of it and so did her mom and she told me she wasn't going to quit anymore but yeah well she did! And yeah well we did have some contact after but since recent accident that past.The contact kind of like broke. You see a week after my birthday we made plans to go to Bxl and go to like a S-bar and my bro kind of like caught me on a pic on Fb and yeah after that the contact got lost and now I see pic of her sister with C on Fb and stuff. But when I think again about our relationships it was like in the beginning a lot of fun but at the end it was all misery since I had that fight with C it was like always a battle of who she's going to hang with today and yeah that was pretty much it. After our little incident my parents told me not to hang with her anymore and eventhough I didn't listen to them we kind of like grew a part anyway. So now we don't have contact anymore aven though I send her some texts on Fb she doesn't often respond on them or when I text her she doesn't even reply anymore I don't now if she has no credit or she just doesn't wanna text me. And whe she does has credit she doesn't text me anyway. Then after that my bro forst me to wear the hijab or else he would tell my mom about the things I did with S. and so yeah I had no choice. With him I have no band at all anymore. I don't even look at him cause of the things I had to do and the blackmail. So yeah I can define my 2012 in 1 word wich is 'MISERY'.

PurpleChicksDream....